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Thursday, March 27, 2008

Because of Her love towards Him

A guy and a girl was having a wonderful relationship. The guy's name was Justine and the girl's name was Anna. Justine is totally ill due to an heart failure but Justine didn't told Anna about it. Justine only had few days to live according to his personal doctor. Justine didn't want to tell Anna because Justine doesn't want Anna to get worried and cried about it. So one day where it is Justine last day to live with Anna, Justine brought Anna for a ride in the city. In the car, Justine asked a question towards Anna. On the same time, Anna felt something is not right about Justine. The question was like this, "Anna. Seriously, do you love me like how i love you right now?" Before Anna answered Justine's question, Anna ask a question as well. "You're keeping a secret from me. I could feel that you're not telling me something." Instead of answering Anna's question, Justine repeat his question once more. "Answer me Anna. Do you love me like how i love you right now?" So Anna answered "Yes. I do love you as much as you love me too. You are everything to me in my life and i will never search for another guy as a replacement but just being with you forever even if you die." Then immediately she asked Justine "Why are you asking me this question?" Again Justine did not answer Anna but suddenly stop the car somewhere that is up hills. Then, Justine and Anna came out of the car and went in front of the car. Justine kiss Anna on Anna's lips and both of Anna's chick with a hug after that and said "I thank and appreciate you of what you said. I love you so much and forever i will" With a sudden, Anna drop her tears to the ground with no reason. "What is going on? Please tell me." said Anna. Again Justine did not answered Anna's question. Instead of answering, Justine and Anna went in the car. Justine drove down the hill with a speed that keeps on increasing by itself. Next thing, Anna found herself lying on the hospital bed. As soon as Anna awakes, Anna immediately asked about Justine. Asking is Justine alright. Anna's parents gave a newspaper and showed Anna a picture of a couple had a terrible accident. Anna saw the car number was Justine's car. She read the article about it. The reporter wrote " A couple named Justine and Anna had a terrible crash due to break failure. Justine is to believe the driver was in coma situation while Anna was badly injured and unconscious. Justine and Anna was rush to the hospital and immediately went into the wad room. Anna had a broken leg, neck and arm and is to believe will be fine in a few months. Doctors find out that Justine suffer from a heart failure and it was Justine last day to live......." After reading the article, Anna cried so badly. Anna now knew the reason why Justine asked Anna a question in the car before the incident happen. Anna finally knew that Justine's love is the precious love towards Anna's life and precious heart. Anna promise herself that Anna will not find another person and cherish the perfect moment and memories with Justine.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Self-Sacrifice for my love ones!

Been forced to join some organization which people have to a choice to either to join or not. SHE was there with me as well. In my dream, i'm having a relationship with HER. Both of us were so in love towards each other, caring and happy. A few of my friends were been captured in a small hall where i were able to see them from the outside and i'm the only person that could get in the hall. I was kinda in charge and is the leader among everyone. SHE was in that hall as well. I got so worried about her till the organization people knew that i'm with HER. No cops or else lots of friends of mine in the hall wii be in trouble. I was so worried especially HER. I could barely think anything except saving HER from getting hurt. While thinking, i went for a walk. A gas station was nearby. Then, something came up in my mind. I have to sacrifice myself to safe everyone especially HER. So i poured myself with the gasoline and bring along a Zeepo lighter. Immediately i went in the hall with my wet and smell of gasoline body along with Mr. Zeepo. "If you don't let them all free, i'll burn myself together with you all and bring you all with me to dine in hell forever!!!". SHE was so afraid that i'll kill myself to safe everyone. I forced HER to go out and said "I'll be fine". One of my friend who were out the hall called the cops earlier on. While waiting for the cops to come, i was in the hall with the organization people. Mr. Zeepo was already lighted. They were all afraid to be burn in hell with me. That dream, that evening, I nearly sacrifice myself just for HER safety. I love HER so much! How i wish that 'SHE' knew that it's HER. You were in my dream J.F. Or should i say P.J!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Princess Joanna

I'm so glad that you've receive it. Well i wasn't thinking of buying anything for anyone during Valentine though but something came up in my mind. To be honest, your name pop-up on my mind suddenly i said "i need to buy her a valentine's gift. I don't care if she is not my gf or not, as long as i love her so much. That is all it matters in my life". I'm missing you so much as well. I wouldn't think that you would putting my name in your blog saying thanks and everything. and princess, you don't have to say sorry for not meeting me during LSS. You were not suppose to say sorry, it's not your fault even. It's no one's fault okay. We can meet some other time right. It's not that i'm gonna die or something right =D Well, if i do die, then miss me tons alright =) Having difficulty times for me it is right now but hey... It's life rite. Anything can happen. All i want is you to be there with me and keep on supporting me in whatever i'm doing alright. That is all i'm asking from you. Not more than that. & and if i do come back to miri, i'll let you know alright. You'll be one of the first person to know that i'm going back to miri alright. love you so much princess! muahxx!
I MISS && LOVE PRINCESS JOANNA SO MUCH

My HoNesTy

Today is easter sunday. Which mean, happy easter everyone! Hehe. Anyway, i just wanna tell my honesty to everyone that doesn't think that i'm a honest person. Well, here goes. This early morning i went to church. After church, there was lots of sales booth around the church. So i went around to take a look. Wanted to buy the church T-Shirt but i didn't bring enough money. So i saw this food called 'Bak-Chang'. It's like a 'pulut' with sambal inside it. So i bought 3 bak-chang. I wanted to buy 5 but my money just enough for emergency. So i bought 3 only. 1 cost Rm2.00. Which all together is Rm6.00. I suddenly get back the change of Rm6.00 in my hand. I was curious then. I was trying to figure it out. Am i the one who count wrongly or they gave me Rm6.00 mistaken. So i went back to the bak-chang stall and asked them how much is it 1 of the bak-chang. They told me it's Rm2.00 for 1. So i immediately gave back to her my change and said "You gave me Rm6.00 in return while i should have Rm4.00 actual price right?" They suddenly say "Oh ya. Sorry and thank you." After taking back my change, i went back home. While on my way to my motorbike, i overheard them saying "he's honest" which make myself proud of being honest and not to lie. I admire myself for being honest and starting from that i'm trying changing my own attitude to be good.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Actually i don't know what to say right now but i feel like posting something for my blog as an update post. Gosh. This month is a hard month for me. I kinda shrunk my grades in college. I only get 57% in Financial Accounting and 52% in Information for Management Control. Kinda a bit hard thought. But i was relieved that i got my Macroeconomics 96% Which is one of the highest mark in my class. Blah's! But still i am not happy with my other Accounting course subject. I so suck at it this time. Now i need to get more higher grades for my final exam of this second Semester. Aah~!!! Anyway, another dream occur again last night. Frequently having dreams these days. I wonder why. Hm. Ta ta. That's all for now. Daaa

Sunday, March 16, 2008

This days i always get lots of dreams. I always dream of something weird. So weird that wouldn't ever happen in life. But i kinda wonder, why did i dream this kind of dream. As soon as i fell asleep, weird dreams appear in my mind. As if it would really happen. I tried to figure it out but i just can't. I can't explain why is this happening. Sometimes i dream about my cousin who are in trouble and i am always there for them. I could even hug them in my dreams. Sometimes i could just laugh in reality during my sleeping time. I realised that i smiled and laugh in reality, so i woke up and asking myself. What am i laughing and smiling without reason? Hm. Recently i had lots of dreams. Before i never had this kind of dream continuously every night. Dreams keep on changing. I could even sweat like hell when i woke up from dreams. I could even suddenly cry when i woke up after having a dream. And sometimes i could get worried after a dream that consist of my friends and family. In dreams they are in trouble and sometimes it could happen in reality as well. *Sighs* Why is this happening to me in my fantasy world and my reality world?

Saturday, March 15, 2008

CuT cUt CuT!

Last friday i went to the barber shop. Guess what, i wanted to cut my hair and color my hair. Instead of doing that, i cut my hair and do treatment on my hair. I was like "Wth! When will i color my hair then?" The barber boss told me that i can only color my hair by next week. Treatment and coloring my hair can't do in the same day. I was like so down. Now i have to wait another week then i can color my hair. *sigh* Anyway, i was thinking of coloring my hair Fire Red but i took a picture of myself with some original effect by the light, i saw my hair was purple on the side of my hair. Then i suddenly think what if i color my hair both Fire Red and Purple. Not mixing color but front Fire Red then a bit back of my hair i wanna color Purple. I wonder how is it gonna be? Is it good or what? Hopefully it's perfect for my hair though. Bleahs!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Exciting Weekend (07/03-10/03 2008)













The day i just camp to miri for the weekend i feel so happy to be back. The picture above is on saturday where we had so much fun outside and inside. If you know what i mean. Barry, im sure you know what i mean right. LoL! Anyway, i had lots of fun that time. Sleepless and drinking is all we do. Haha. First night we didnt sleep at all just to take care of people who are in the camp. LoL!




Here is the funny part. The first night we were told to look after the confirmers. So we did. In their middle of sleeping, we check every each room. Suddenly we went to this room and guess what, a boy sleeping with his hands in his pants. Haha! Barry, Gabriel and i laugh like hell then Barry asked me to take photo of this kid hands in his pants. The 3 of us was wondering. What is he dreaming about that night? LOL! Dude! It's hillarious you know! LoL!


This place is the toilet way the 3 of us do our thing. Hehe. If you all get what i mean. Barry, Gabriel you both should know what i mean right. LoL. The first picture i took it at the canteen. Behind there is the picture of the toilet where we do our own project without letting people knowing. Whereas the second picture is a picture that I AM NOT PEEING! Haha. The water came out from the barrier. it has a hole above of the barrier. I asked Barry to take this picture. It's kinda funny thought. LoL!

The 3 picture above is my last night in miri where i got the chance to perform in front of 131 students aka confirmers for this year. Picture took by Barry, our camera man for the night. LoL. Barry, don't think i get all the credit by myself do you? LOL. Anyway, thanks to you bro. I couldn't don't much without you. By the way, that is the night where Barry, Gabriel and i get the credit and lots of compliment from Auntie Margaret for helping and coming back once again for the church. Hehe. I feel so 'bangga' already that night =b Haha. LoL! Anyway if anyone wanna check out the video of the senior group singing that night, you all can check it out in youtube. Here is the Link

Thursday, March 6, 2008

I'm standing on the edge waiting for you to come
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A girl like you is impossible to find in this world. Stand on the edge with me. That is all i'm asking from you and i'll hold on your hands tight. Forever i'll be with you and together the both of us discover our world. Please give me a change to tell you how i was feeling and i'll never let you go out of my side. I'll look in your eyes and convince you that i will never let you go. Tonight will be the night that i would fall for you. I swear that i'll never fall apart and i will not change my mind on you. I'll hold on to your words and i will always love you for eternity. This second, this minute, this hour, this day, this week, the year and most importantly, this moment i will love you more than you know. Your face reminds me of the shinning star up upon the sky that appears at night together with the bright moonlight. If i could just stop the clock at least for a few seconds to enjoy the night lying down the ground and watch the stars shine so beautiful as how you shine my life by changing my stars into something extraordinary. Something extraordinary that would be a beautiful memory to be remember for life! I could just smile in my dream thinking about it while the moonlight shines to my bedroom.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008


Sometimes i kinda missing holding hands. I miss the time where i used to hold her hands tight so that i won't let her go. But i went to the wrong path. I let her hands go. I shouldn't let her hands drop from my hands. That was my very mistake that i will regret for ages. I can't believe i just let it go. I miss you so much. I miss everything about you. Now you are seeking help from me. Asking help from me about what should you do in certain situation especially in your love relationship. I didn't want to help you at first because i still like you every since i let you go but i have no choice except to help you. I don't want you to have a heart broken relationship. I'm willing to do anything to help you with your life. If i'm lucky to have you back, i will love you forever than before. Now it is too late for me to love you till forever because i've let you go out of my hands. How i wish i could turn back time and be with you since the day i'm with you till forever. I would be so happy to be in that relationship. Each day, you are getting pretty. I just had to lose you from my grip. I should have just keep your hands in my palm. And i wouldn't have to be lonely like right now. If i could just tell you the truth that i still like you. Would you still accept me? I may not be the perfect face you want but maybe my heart of face those look perfect to you. If i could just have the guts to tell the truth to you once again. The thing is, i always get the fear of rejection. How i which you were able to read what i've written down in this blog of mine & let you read everything about the truth. The truth about my heart are still within your life. Lots of mistake i've been doing in my life and i can't do anything about it except accepting this 'Karma' that God have given to me and let me be punish for years. I still love you so much and i miss you so much. Every time you miss called me, i would be so happy to call you back and talk to you. I would be so happy to talk to you on the phone for hours. Unfortunately i still can't tell you the truth about what i am feeling right now.