Excapade sushi (Kuala Belait)

Saturday 3rd January 2009, my family and I went to Brunei for a day trip. When to the mall and then went to Kuala Belait to have sushi. Unfortunately, it wasn't open when we get there. So we end up going there for nothing. Our purpose of going there was to eat the sushi but we were unfortunate. Then the next day, we went to Kuala Belait again once more just for the sushi. We went there around 11am. Anyway, a few picture has been posted by me. So enjoy it.

Unplanned Moment

Today after class I wanted to have a nap but then when my aunt told me that the internet at my house in Kuching is fine already, so I then decided to update my laptop and things what I was suppose to do. So at first I was thinking of checking my emails. Didn't have the thoughts of updating my blog actually but before that I was browsing through my pictures in my laptop and then I found a few pictures with my friends and I decided to post it in my laptop. Friends that has been brighten up my days since before and also when I was in Miri for my holiday. Oh yea, guess what, I totally forgot about my air ticket which is for CNY. Ever since I when back to Kuching, I always think that my flight is on the 23 January 2009. Till when I one of my email. My mum sent me my travel Itinerary ticket and as I see the date of going back to Miri, It was 22 January 2009. I was like "wth! I thought it was on 23 January 2009???" Luckily I checked out the date before I missed it. Fuh!~~~

Oh yea. I almost forgot! I found a few pictures of myself and my friends. The pictures that I found was in the year of 2006-2007 and I totally misses that moment so much especially spending time with Consuelo. I still remember on the day we went for hiking, John and I gave her a necklace which consist of her picture with the twin and behind the necklace wrote something like "Happy 16th Birthday..." something something which I forgot what did I wrote. Ha ha!

Anyway, there's a few picture that I'm gonna post in my blog. Pictures with my friends and a picture which is a very unique picture taken by Consuelo (for me is very unique and a good post). I guess that's it for now. Tata!

This picture was takeny by Consuelo herself and I Consider this picture as a 5 star picture because it is totally unique.

MeLinda Law and I. She laughted the whole time when I was there and she's a fun gurl to hang out with. Seriously, she's so crazy that you'll be crazy with her!

Sushi King. Ate more than 30 plates and build mini twin tower :P Ha ha!

My beautiful sister and I. When to the beach after sending John to the airport

Phoebe and Timothy Woodford and my sister. While having a barbecue at my cribs.

Barry and I was waiting for a transport. Ha ha! No la. We waited for my mom because that time our car broke down :P lolx!

I forgot what is the name of this game! Shoot. Whatever la. Anyway, my brother and I played this game and It is so fun. lolx!

Consuelo, Me, Aylwin, John and aunt Grace (Consuelo's mummy)

This is a picture taken by me when I was at the beach. The water was splashing the stones and I manage to take it while it was flying on top of the stones. I counted this as a unique picture too :)

At the dental. Hate dental so much but mum asked to go. So have to go. Sigh. Luckily It's over. Ha ha!

My night

Okay... A few minutes ago, a few of us just finish played Black Jack Casino style. I lost 20cent out of rm5. Ha ha! Before that, my friends and I went to the coffee shop to have dinner and chit-chat. There's a few picture we took while we were in the car. Anyway, I didn't come here to write out about what did I do on my last night actually. I kinda feeling down now actually. It's because I'm missing her a lot. I was really dying to meet her actually but I end up didn't meet her. Didn't have my date with her even. Didn't have the chance to meet her before I go back even. Sigh! You know what bloggie... I kinda feel like crying right now because when I come to think of it.. Not meeting her is kinda hurts me so badly. I feel like I can't live without her and I kinda feel that I kind really think straight. All the song which i randomly played.. All sad and instrumental song again that. Haih! F**K I just want to meet you before I go. That's the only things I want before I leave. I know that my I'm having a strong love feelings towards her and I'm not ashame to even said it even if I have to said it in public.. Anyway, there's a few pictures above with gwen and others. Tata

My last Saturday is a Disaster

Daniella Consuelo Dan

So today is my last day in Miri and still I'm hoping to go out with Consuelo but still not sure yet. I said it's a disaster for my last Saturday is because since morning it was raining heavily and I wanting to go out but the weather just spoil my day out. Hopefully tonight I could go out and meet those who I really wanna meet especially Consuelo. Well, above is a picture of her and I guess that's it :) Take care!

Update asked from Lil Jac Jac :P

So here's another new update which was asked by someone. So, I got like left another 1 more day in Miri and It's kinda sucks because I have to leave once more. Huhu.. Anyway, Friday is the day when my siblings play badminton and I join them played today. It's kinda fun though and I did win a few games :P ha ha! Oh yea, speaking about the days. Last Wednesday, Barry, Lanie, my brother and I went to SMK Lutong and there is a MAJOR changes in that freaking school! Damn! haha! Anyway, It's kinda cool though. Meet my formal teacher and my principle as well. Ha ha! Went to the canteen during the student's recess and we met Joanna, Shaleen, Brian and others la (who I am lazy to named it already) :P Ha ha! After that, we went to the toilet. Toilet even changes man! Ha ha! lolx! I accidentally met Jessica Ramas, Gloria Choo and Karen (a friend of gloria). Was so suprise to see them and they were as suprise as I am :P Ha ha! lolx! That Wednesday we went out the whole day and I went back home a few minutes before 5pm. Well, nothing special actually. Just the "dudes" hang out day :P Ha ha! tata!

The sake to update my blog

I want to write something but I don't know what to write. So for the sake to update my blog, I write something to fill up my blog. So I'm still in Miri till 11 Jan and I'm thinking of going out with my friends before I go back to kuching once more. Hmm, a lot of my friends say that I have a new girlfriend. I was like, "huh? who told you that? Since when?" That's a pretty shock question. Anyway, someone do realize about my current problem and asked me to share it. Unfortunately I didn't shared. Not till I come back to kuching. Much easier to explain everything. Thanks for noticing it though. Its the fact that you read my blog often. Ha ha! Oh yea, yesterday and Saturday I went to Brunei with my family. He he. On sunday we went walking around the mall and then wanted to have sushi. When we reach to the sushi shop, the shop was closed already. It was so frustrated and we went back immediately. We went to Brunei again on the next day just to have sushi. Ha ha! It was fun though :P We ate like a lot of sushi. Then, when we wanted to go back, my eldest brother and I play with the food. Then, he threw the prawn's head trying to asked me to catch it with my mouth. It was too high, so I tried to catch it. Instead of catching it, I blocked it and guess what, It went to another side of the table and hit a guy's hand. I act dumb as if nothing happen. ha ha! When we pass through, I make an innocent face and the next table people like looking at me while i was passing through. It was hilarious. LOL! Anyway, that's all. Nitey nite nite! Love D

Drunk before even reaching friend's cribs on New Year. lolx!

I celebrate my new year at my aunt's house and after that at Lannie's cribs. I was suppose to still be in the sober emotion but I got drunk after new year. lolx! It was crazy I tell you. I mean, with the mixing and remix drinks I drank and when I reach to Lannie's cribs right, I kinda fainted. Lolx! I have no idea what happen but all I remember was giving a sign of peace to Barry and Gwennie and went to bed immediately Lolx! I was major down. I have no idea what did I do even. All I remember is... I got drunk! lolx! anyway, happy new year everyone :)

Back in Miri for few weeks :D Happy like crazy guy!

I'm as happy as I should be because I'm in Miri and It's been ages I've not went back home. Seriously, a lot of things change here. Like major change. Anyway, met my Gwennie, My princess Joanna, My mummy, My eldest brother, My 2nd eldest brother, My sister and Lil yeng yeng. Yeng yeng is as cute as before and naughty :P ha ha. We have our own bar which is so cool! ha ha. Oh yea, by the way, sorry to every each of my blogger reader for not updating my blog. My streamyx got problem... Something like that but now its okay. So continue online lor :P ha ha! Oh yea, not to forget.. I'm happy to meet Lil Garnette, Lil Marelyn... Most of all... Ello my dearest. :) I'm very happy to meet everyone. That's the bottom line. I'm happy to meet everyone's parent's as well. My first appearance at the church, everyone start to be surprise to see and to meet me. It was pretty awesome especially when their faces changes into a surprise faces :P ha ha! First person among the friends I hugged was My Princess Joanna... I guess.. Lolx and second was Lil Garnette and others.. :P ha ha! Barry, nice to see you once more. As promised, I'll call you whenever I am in Miri right? he he. Ello, nevertheless, I keep on missing you eventhough we're far apart and yes I'll keep on missing you no matter we meet everyday... Anyway, I have no idea what is going on with my relationship but I'm guessing It's not gonna work out as how it looks like. I'm thinking of being friends for now but I'm looking forward to meet you. That's all. :) No hard feelings sweet.

Current Artist In Favourite

Drake Bell in Drake and Josh Tv show

Josh Peck in Drake and Josh

Japanese show - Ueno Juri and Tamaki Hiroshi main character in Nodame Cantabile: Live Action

Jennette McCurdy, Jerry Trainor and Nathan Kress 3 of the main character in iCarly

Emily Ostment and Mitchel Musso main character in Hannah Montana

Selena Gomez and David Henrie main character in Wizards and the waverly place

Ashley Tisdale famous character in Disney Channel

Miranda Cosgrove main character in iCarly

This are the characters which I adore so much. They are funny, awesome character and have one of the best TV show :) enjoy the pictures everyone (:

ILoveKuching Weekend Event

Hip-hop shown by soul higher crew

First band perform on the event

Kuching Rappers and second band performance

Hair stylist show was one of the afternoon events

Acoustic performance by a pretty girl and a awesome guitarist

Third band performance with extra hilarious moment when there's an old man supporting them real hard xp

Fourth band performance and they were amazing

Fifth band performance but unfortunately the vocalist had to read the lyrics by his phone

Famous local rappers : Underground Rapstars

Third last performance of the evening, Mayze :Vocalist and bassist are college lecturers

Lucille! A friend of my. There were brilliant that evening.

NERD! The lead guitarist was amazing with its guitar effects (:

This are the events that was held in Kuching water front. It started from morning till at night around 9pm. I end up getting very exhausted with a painful legs. Can't even sleep that night pretty well. But it was a good event organized by ILoveKuching.com and empowered by F&N (:

My second tagged (:

Tagged by Jac Jac (:

Ok, randomness.TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR:

1. FINGERS: theodoric
2. CHIN: frthbedkdxkfdjc. lolx! It doesn't even spell correctly or even rhymes with my freaking names -_-||
3. ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: throfptov. wth! only 3 alphabet that are at the place where it should be. lolx!
4. ELBOW: theodoric. Still easy to do it :P haha!
5. NOSE: theodoric. My nose are amazing. But I end up feeling dizzy :S
6. PALM: tyhgjeodortkicx. Lolx! I don't wanna comment bout this xp

1. List four random items you have:
necklace, wallet, phone and a ring.

2. Have you ever slept in the back of the car?
I surely do :D


3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
I just cut it like few weeks ago and I still look good on this short hair xp

4. List four people you look up to the most.
Gwendolyn, Natalie, Clarinda Fay and Theodore John

5. How many pets do you own as of now?
umm, a few? lolx!

6. Which do you prefer? White or Black?
I'm not sure tho. Sometimes its black and sometimes its white. I think white tho :P

7. Who is your most played character?
What character are you talking about? -_-"

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend, or being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances.
I would rather choose being stuck on an island with a friend

9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Helpful, short hair and umm, dark? lolx!

10. If you could have a power what would it be?
Freeze time? ha ha!

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
My skater friend, Igat

12. Who was the last person you said “i love you” to?
Mummy (:

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your mind:
chicken, spongebob, bunny *that is the only things that pop out of my mind* xp

14. What’s one thing you wish you could do better?
To be a good and better friend to everyone...

15. Do you like the way you are?
yeap (:

16. Choose, Summer or winter?
I want winter!!! XP

17. Rain or snow?
SNOW of course! Never experience snow yet though

18. Water or ice?
Can I get both? lolx!

19. List two odd things about yourself.
love neckties so much and umm, always drive a vehicle without license? :P

20. Which are two of your bad habits?
lazyness, listening to music during classes

21. What’s 1 of your biggest pet peeve?
No idea though :P

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
"Do I look good?" lolx! seriously xp

-How much cash do you have on you?
Not much :(

-Favorite planet?
Most probably earth because that's the only planet which has oxygen? lolx!

-Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
No one. I delete my log calls already xp sorry

-What is your favorite theme on your phone?
The theme that I am currently using. Which states "I miss you" (:

-What shirt are you wearing?
Not wearing any. I was sweating. Just came back from playing skateboard. He he.

-Bright or Dark Room?
Dark. More romantic Xb

-What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
She's short. Ha ha. Sorry Jac jac ;p

-What were you doing at midnight last night?
umm, sleeping

-What's a word that you say a lot?
Good morning (:

-Who told you he/she loved you last?
Mummy :D

-Favorite age you have been so far?
I guess 18. lolx!

-Your worst enemy?
Dunno wor...

-What was the last thing you said to someone?
"Chaw lok geng" he he

-If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Hard question. *pressure* *pressure* I'd rather choose fly. I can go anyway by flying (: he he

-Do you like someone?
I do like someone...

-The last song you listened to?
Spongebob theme song xp

I tag:
Gwendolyn
Cherylyn Rodes
Marelyn

Suster Ngesot

Film ini bercerita tentang dua orang suster muda cantik yang mendiami sebuah asrama tua, Vira (Nia Ramadhani) dan Silla (Donita), mereka bersahabat satu sama lain. Vira memiliki pacar seorang mahasiswa ganteng asal Australia, Mike (Mike Lewis), yang baru tinggal 8 bulan di Jakarta.

Vira tidak menyadari ketika ia mengenalkan Sila pertama kali kepada Mike adalah sebuah blunder dan awal mula ketegangan 'standar' dimulai. Kenapa standar, karena bagi penikmat film horor sejati dan film horor berkaliber besar, adegan-adegan serta jalannya film tersebut dapat dengan mudah ditebak. Bahkan ada adegan yang mirip persis dengan salah satu video klip grup band Yovie and The Nuno.

Suster ngesot sendiri adalah seorang suster sesungguhnya yang bernama, Lastri (Lia Waode), yang meninggal 20 tahun sebelumnya karena dikhianati oleh tunangannya yang berselingkuh dengan sahabatnya. Lastri akhirnya tewas di tangan tunangannya karena gelap mata aksi perselingkuhannya diketahui.

Ketika Silla dan Mike menjalin 'cinta terlarang' itulah suster ngesot mulai berani menunjukkan batang hidungnya. Kematian demi kematian mendera orang-orang yang diduga pernah berselingkuh di lingkungan rumah sakit tersebut.

Sebelum kematian demi kematian tersebut mendatangi korbannya, Vira mendapatkan petunjuk dari sebuah buku harian tua. Pada buku tersebut muncul inisial awal orang-orang yang akan dijemput ajalnya.

Character of this film...




After watching this horror movie, I kinda find it interesting and awesome. Ha ha. Happy reading. This story goes to Gwendolyn Rinai :P Loves!

Tagged! You're it! :D

Was tagged by Princess Joanna ♥

Rule 1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule 2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
* Definetely a yes

2. Would you fall in love with a girl younger than you?
* Yeah, and make sure she's hot and lovable xp

3. Do you enjoy going to college?
* Sometimes. It's enjoyable when my friends sponsor me makan-makan xp

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
* I have no idea but I think I can do a lots of things with a Billion dollars. haha

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
* Ever did. Lesson learn, Love your best friend as A best friend. Not more than that. Trust me, I've been through this situation

7. List 5 recently watched movies.
* 1. Bangkok Dangerous
* 2. The Mist
* 3. Shanghai Kiss
* 4. The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
* 5. Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay

8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
* I have no idea what would I do :S

List 5 favourite TV shows.
* 1. Drake and Josh
* 2. Hannah Montana xp
* 3. My wife and Kids
* 4. Are you smarter than a 5th grader
* 5. Wizards of Waverly Place

10. Do you have any regrets?
* Yes I do and I'm guessing you do too.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
* I can't predict the future. So umm, no idea

12. Who is the most important person to you?
* Family, friends and her.

13. What kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?
* She's my Princess Joanna and she's a cute and chubby girl. My V.I.P xp She knows what does it means :)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
* umm, I don't want any of that. I want to be rich and married at the same time with full of hearts on our side. Is there any option containing that kind of needs? lolx!

15. What is your favourite color?
* Black and White

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
* I would and I don't even mind but if she's so pain in the ass... The hell would I give her!

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, which one would you choose?
* Hard to choose. Headache2 -_-" but I rather want to fall to only one person which has pure heart towards me :)

18. What are the top 5 places on your "to-go" list?
* 1. Japan
* 2. Beijing
* 3. Hawaii
* 4. New York
* 5. Paris

19. Name 3 things you would like to do but would never be able to.
* 1. Turn back time
* 2. Be with her all the time
* 3. Be there for Gwenne whenever she's needs someone to talk and a shoulder to cry on

20. 5 people I have tagged
* 1. Amalina
* 2. Hui Yen candy girl xp
* 3. Cherylyn Rodes
* 4. Cindy Sylvia
* 5. Cassandra Yong

oh crap!

My belated wishes in my blog to Marelyn Telun and Sonia Uli. Happy sweet 16th birthday :D Sorry for the late wishes in my blog. I just don't have the time to blog everyday these days. Kinda get busy with my studies lately. Anyway, hope u both did had a lot of fun during your birthday alright :D oh yea, sorry for not giving out any pressie this year. Got no time to went out to the store to buy something surprisingly for you both.

To Sonia, thanks for still remembers me as one of your friends in your life. We may get on the wrong foot and I'm sorry about it :) By the way, you don't have to worry for we are still be friends, I wouldn't forget you just because of all the misunderstanding we had before. So, i've for so long forgive you even if you did any mistake towards me. What's past is past. We can't turn back to the time we wanted right? :)

As for Marelyn, sorry for not keeping in touch with you quite so long already. I just get too busy with college and I never thought I would get totally busy. Oh yea, I wouldn't forget your birthday either :) Everyone's birthday must be remembered especially those who I consider "Special friends" :D

So basically, I've been a friend of Sonia for just one year and a few days. Lolx! I'm glad I even get the chance to know and to met her before. As for Marelyn, I don't have to tell. I even went to her house and not only that, I even know her family. Lolx! take care :D

What a week :O

I know I've not blog like for so long and my apologies to all my faithful readers. Anyway, things get pretty wild these days especially on my assignments and exams. The worst part is printing out my assignments. I can't believe I just printed out 82 pages of my assignments. Not included my other assignments. It's so tired doing it. Sleeping late at night and waking early morning to continue doing my revision and also doing some revision for exam. Next exam would probably on 9 December. Tiredness occurs again and again. And I can't stop myself being ill since last few weeks. I wanted to skip class but I just can't. Exam is just right around the corner. But hey, I don't really care about that. The only things right now in my head was "Christmas, Here I come!" Ha ha. Anyway, just a few minutes ago I printed out like 4 assignments and oh yea, I pass 1 of my mid-term exam. It wasn't a high score in the class though but I was the second highest :P Ha ha. I thought I'd failed but end up surprisingly marks. lolx! Anyway, Phoebe W. and I are getting closer and closer every each day. Either she or I myself would call and text each other everyday. Ha ha. And we talked like lots of stuff especially her secret admirer. Not to mention that, about someone she hate currently. Lolx. And when she's sad or pissed off, I was the one to cool her down and she was okay the next day :D Ha ha. Well, not even a single person would even know that we both are that very very very close. Most probably people would thought that we're just a friend that come and say "Hi and take care" lolx! So basically everyone, ready for the unexpected things going on around your life. You'll never know what will comes after next.

That's it for today. Need to have my rest. So tired of everything. Lolx!

[I][L][Y] [N][L][Y]

Need a JOB? Lolx!

I was browsing through Google images and I found this image and It's totally hilarious. It says "There are better ways to make career." Ha ha. Just thinking of sharing something funny for today's blog. Anyway, still sick and not getting any better yet. So I'll post another bulletin again sooner or later alright. Ta ta!

Sickness occur :S

Today I'm feeling sick since yesterday afternoon and it get worst like a lot. I got myself a running nose (flu), a little bit of headache, coughing, and fever. My lecturer and another friend of mine notice that my face was a little bit out of color. What I mean is I'm not in my original color. My friend said that my face looks really red and a bit dark than usual. It's like my blood are running up onto my face. I didn't notice that thought. I was thinking of not going to class today but I had too because I need to do some revision for next week's examination. It's kinda a bit hard but what to do... I need to force myself to go. I knew that I'm gonna be sick in these few days, but I had to sacrifice my time for the exam which I need to seat next week. Yesterday had my exam too but I was fine at first till afternoon came. Ga ah!

Wish for the past, Hope for the future.

I find out something interesting conversation with my friend. We were talking about not thinking of the future too much and think about 'now' rather than the past and the future. Future can change unpredictable. For example, tomorrow we plan that we're gonna have barbecue in the afternoon and end up with no afternoon barbecue. So basically, we can hope to the plans but we couldn't wish it to happen because anything could happen in a click of the clock. My friend and I were talking about my situation last few nights ago. I was thinking towards the future too much. I was thinking that when will I meet my girlfriend again? I know I can meet her on the month of April next year but what about after April? What will happen next right? No one knows including myself.So I started to get really worried about it. Thinking that would be my last time meeting her. So my friend explain to me something that is really reasonable for my answers. He told me that not to think about the future but just to think about this moment and now. At first I don't really understand what did he wanted to say. So he told me something like this...

"Don't plan or think about the future because future is unpredictable and plans are unreliable. Anything can happen in just a few seconds. It's because we can't see the future and so as you right? Maybe things will work out pretty well in the future and maybe things won't work as you or even I planned. And also, don't start to plan too early because plans is sometimes gonna work out and sometimes it won't. For example, you said that you plan to go to the beach next week and suddenly on the week you've plan to go to the beach rains. Then all the plans are change unexpected right? So it's basically the same as right now."

So as it think back of all his words, I found that of what he has said is really true. I planned something but sometimes it didn't work out as it plans and sometimes it does.

Sometimes we wish to have something in life right? But majority our wish didn't come through. Lets put it this way, on our birthday. Before blowing up the candle, we have to make a wish right? So lets say that the wish we made is something like this "I wish to have straight A's in my exams" but it turns out that you didn't get everything A's in the exam. But HOPE is another words and meaning. We use to say "I hope I'll pass my exam with flying colors" and it did actually. Our exam didn't went too bad and didn't went too good but it was good enough to see. Hope is something that can happen and sometimes can't but most of the time (for myself), it went pretty well.

To say a WISH, it could only say only when things have already happen. For example, lets say you've regretted doing something like breaking up with your girlfriend/boyfriend due to something silly and now you're miserable without the person you love the most while he/she is really having a happy life. So most probably we would say "How I wish I didn't break up with him/her. I would be happy together with him/her by now". Most of the time, WISH are used when we regret doing something or something that we didn't had the chance to do.

And as for HOPE, is to be said for the future. From my experience, I hope that I could keep long hair and dye my hair to the color that I've been wanting. And it actually came through. So basically HOPE is the words that are use in the future to hope things to be happen in our life or other people's life. Another common example that most people would use is "I hope that she/he are happy with her/his new relationship" something like that right? Well, sometimes hope happens for good and sometimes it doesn't.

That's why I said...

"Wish For The Past, Hope For the Future"

I feel stupid?

So I feel like writing something on my blog right now. I don't really care who read my blog anymore or what will I say about someone. I just don't care if they get hurt or not. I don't even care if my best friend get hurt because I know that I got hurt as well. Well not really best friend anymore. I don't feel that person is my best friend or even my close friend anymore. I feel kinda stupid already and I know I act like a jerk but why does that person's friend say that I'm bad while I didn't say anything about her. I don't even really know about her. "Best friend"? should I even refer you as my best friend or not. I just don't really know. You told me that you gonna called me, but you didn't. Instead of calling me, you told me to back of in your friend's friendster. What the hell was that? Because of you, I'll just have to back of. Because of you, I'd rather listen to you. And BECAUSE OF YOU, I got hurt. Like totally hurt. I don't know when will I be talking to you anymore. I think I'll just let it be. Not even telling you when will I'll be back. I just don't know who you are anymore and maybe you don't know who am I anymore. I don't know... What's the point of you saying to me "You're very important to me and I can't live without you" That is so pathetic. You're just saying it for the sympathy you needed in your life. I just can't believe that I would fall for that words. If I knew things would happen like this, I should have not talking to you for quite a long time. Didn't you notice that I'm the one who started to talk to you.. NOT YOU! I'm the one who was always there for you... But you weren't there for me. YOU WERE NOT! It's so freaking idiot. I don't even think that I would want to meet you anymore. You're just a word with stupid meanings on my sight. HOW STUPID AM I TO FALL FOR THAT!?!?

Am I Just a puppet with strings on my body to you?

Am I just a puppet with strings on my body to you? Can be carry anyway and use it as freely as you like? My real point here is actually, Are you fooling around with me or being totally serious? Because if you're fooling around with me, then just forget about those relationship that we are having right now. But if you're serious in this relationship then I'll say thank you and so am I being serious in this relationship. That's the only things I wanted to point out actually. Thanks.

I love [N] [L] [Y]

There's no goodbye in my dictionary

There is no goodbye
Because we really never leave;
There is no separation,
Not any cause to grieve.
There is a part of me
That will always be with you,
And a part of you forever
Dwells within me, too.

I am holding you in love
As the spirit that you are;
No matter what the distance,
You really never far.
Nothing in this world of One
Can ever really part;
Whoever shares themselves in love
Is joined in the heart.

When you think of me, remember
The perfection that I see;
That within my heart I hold you
As a gift bestowed on me.
Remember when you find yourself
Tempted to despair,
To stop and feel my presence
And know that I am there.

In the deepest recess of your heart
I'll forever dwell;
Always sending love and light
And wishing that you're well.

So I'd say that there was no goodbye in my dictionary. I mean, saying goodbye actually is a hurting words though. For example, saying good to me is like saying goodbye forever and will not be seeing each other anymore. So I would never say goodbye to anyone or in anyhow unless you're dead. So basically I'd say goodbye to those who leave and wouldn't exist anymore. Anyway, that is the only thing that I wanted to shared few weeks actually but I was busy with exams and other stuff. But hey, do tell me what is your opinion on your goodbye because I know that I never had a word of 'goodbye' in my dictionary and I don't even know how to define 'goodbye' as well.