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Sunday, December 9, 2007



From left: Annabell Aurelia, Theodoric Job (me), Aldridge Aylwin, Mumm, Aaron (Junior) and Theodore John


After a few month i didnt meet my family, it's kinda lonely without them thought.
Was planning to come back to Miri for Christmas and New Year but John (my Twin) didn't come back because of his exam whih is kinda sucks bout it. So mum decided to asked me to go Kuala Lumpur and be with john. Celebrate the twins birthday (john and I), celebrate christmas and even celebrate New Year. So basically John and i gonna celebrate this 3 special occasion without my mum and my siblings. It's a bit sad for me actually because it's kinda lonely without them when we celebrate this 3 special occasion. Bleahs! What to do, have to celebrate with John only for this year.


Anyway, i dunno bout how John feel la. Either sad or not that i dunno. Need to ask him thought. Hmm... What else did i wanna say huh? Bleahs! Forgetful me! Oh yea, last wednesday night (05/12/07) i text message with Michelle Ruran. Before i start texting her, she miss called my phone. So i miss called her phone. Then she text me saying that i kedekut wanna call her. So i reply her and said "i got not much credit to call you, you are the one who kedekut wanna call me." Then she said "i'm so borink rite now. No one is texting me. Dah la he go back kampung didnt tell me even! Go and left me like that only!" So i was like "WHAT!?!?" So i asked her immediately, who the hell is this 'HE' you're talking about? Why are you angry at me? Am i the person that left you??!? Then she say that her BOYFRIEND left to kampung didnt told her. I was a bit shock actually because she didnt told me earlier and also a bit sad because there is someone much much better in her life already appear while i still love her like before. I asked her why didnt she told me before? She said she was sorry and told me everything bout it. Well, not everything actually. Bleahs! In the morning on wednesday (05/12/07) i was so happy. In a very good mood till night appear, i became sad and moody. Feel like not talking because after reading the message that Michelle Ruran has a new Boyfriend already.Arghh! so hate it!


Okay. This 2 girls and especially on the right side girl, i miss her so much till i dream bout her like almost every night. It's kinda weird about something thought. I just know her when times she and a few of her schoolmate went to kuching. There were in kuching like 3 days only and LiL Sonia (the girl on the right side) called me big Brother. The first time i saw her was the first day when i meet them in Kuching. I was like so anxious to meet and to know about her. I asked Gloria Garnett (on of their friend and also my own friend) to help me out. So as i seek help from Marelyn Telun (the girl on the left side). Then the next day in the evening i went to meet them again at Kuching Waterfront. At first i didn't notice she was there thought until i saw her crying somewhere there. I was like OMG! What happen to her? Did something just happen? Then Marelyn told me she was not feeling well. So i asked her. "Did you take any medicine just now?" She said no. She told me that she's gonna take her medicine after she reach back to their apartment.

The next day, i went to their apartment around 10pm at night with Willy. I asked Marelyn, Gloria, Garnette and LiL Sonia to join us for a drink for the last night. So they did join. Most of the time Willy, Gloria, Marelyn and i were the one who always talk and talk and talk. Garnette and LiL Sonia is speechless and quite. Garnette was so tired that's why she was quite. Then LiL Sonia was still not feeling well and don't really know much bout us that's why she was quite only. I was so speechless when i wanna say something to LiL Sonia. I asked for Gloria's help then she did help. Haha. Then they say they wanna go back to their apartment. So Willy and i walk them to their apartment. When we reach at their staircase near their room, i told Gloria that i dunno what to say. I'm so speechless. Suddenly Gloria asked LiL Sonia a question. The question was like this "Sonia, Jobby wanna ask you something" With a smiley on Gloria face when she told to LiL Sonia. I was like. WTF...WTF...WTF...WTF! What the hell am i gonna ask and gonna say??? Then LiL Sonia ask me "what is it?" then i answered her..."Huh...*still thinking*...*got an idea*..can i have your phone number if you don't mind?" Everyone like laugh so loud including myself. So LiL Sonia did gave her phone nnumber to me. Then comes a text message to LiL Sonia from Zaid (one of their friend which like LiL Sonia) that nakes LiL Sonia cried. I was like, OMG! What happen? Can i help or anything? At first the girls didn't want to tell until a few minutes after that then they asked for our help. So i help LiL Sonia with her problem which cause her cried so badly (actually i'm the one who help. Willy didn't help anything thought) LoL! Then she said that she wanna talk face-to-face with This Zaid guy. So i say "it's best to talk to him face-to-face. Much easier and better. So LiL Sonia went to meet Zaid outside of their apartment. About half an hour she meet said, she come back. She was crying. Marelyn and the others asked me to comfort her. So i went and comfort her. I asked her either she wants to stay for awhile and hang out with us or not. She said "no thank you, not really in a good mood that time" She said sorry. Then i said it's okay. We all understand. Don't worry. She gave me a hug before she went back to her apartment. I was so suprise that time thought. I'm the only person that get a hug from her.

Since that day, she called me big bro and i called her my LiL Sonia. Last Saturday i dream about LiL Sonia. It was kinda a bad nightmare for me. When i woke up in the morning, i cried suddenly. It shows that i miss her so badly. Then i told everything to LiL Sonia about my dream. The dream was i leave LiL Sonia without saying goodbye or anything. She told me that leaving neither me nor her won't be happen. I was a bit happy when i heard bout what did she said that.

Anyway, i guess that the end for this bloggy. Sorry didn't blog for quite so long. Been so busy with college life since the last few weeks...Bleahs!

Last but not least. I miss you LiL Sonia! God Bless you and take care yea =D I promise you that i'll always be there for you and i wish you that you'll pass your PMR result and don't worry LiL Sonia, you will do excellent and will ahve a flying colours in your PMR. Loves JoBbY!

Thursday, November 22, 2007


Okay...oKay...
1st of all....Do you know that this isn't me...haha...
It's my twin brother Theodore John Lingan...
You know how much i miss him so badly...
Well i guess you all don't.
For 17 years been together and got separated this year...
So that's just bored rite...&& sad...bleahs!
Anyway,he did asked me to post his own-made poem...
or quotes...i don't know....
Well...i did promise him right?
so here it is bro =)

" Watching th moon at night...
As its passes above me...
Wandered is life like the Moon and the Sun...
its like the Day and the Night.
Watching the night in the star near the moon,
watch the moon in the sky
which all seems connected
to be a reason of a human love relationship circle
about life is going around and around
And has no ends.
Life is a sea which have its own generation from the past
to the current timebeing."

Well bro...there it is...hope you're satisfied with it...
I did add a bit because there's grammar mistake....haha..
You should learn english more =b
hahaha!
Anyway...that's it for today's blog!
Gonna bloG again soon =)
*SmIlEs*

Monday, November 19, 2007



The 4 picture above is a christmas season...
Soon its gonna be christmas....
I'm a little bit sad because i'm not going anywhere...
Just gonna stay in kuching....
1st of all...
I'm gonna celebrate my birthday alone without my twin brother...John ='(
My birthday is gonna be on the 22nd December...
Usually my twin brother & i gonna celebrate it together...
But this year is different...I'm gonna celebrate it alone without him...
I'm sure gonna cry because this is my 1st time celebrating my birthday without him.
2nd of all...
Christmas gonna be a boredoom without John =(
I'm gonna miss him during...

My birthday...

My christmas...

My New year...

Looks like i'm gonna celebrate everything by my own...
Everybody gonna have a very happy celebration while i just celebrate it by my own...
Everyone asked me to go back miri for christmas...
But my holidays start on the 23 dec 07 till 1 Jan 08
What is the use of going back if my holidays is short right...
makes well i just stay...
But the thing is i'm gonna be so boredoom....
Even if i do go back to miri...I'm sure i'm not celebrating my birthday at miri...
That is even worst!
Bleahs!
I was thinking of doing some party for my 18th birthday...
But how?
Its not that i'm going back or anything...I'm like staying alone at home...
So not gonna have any 18th birthday party tho... =(
To me...My 18th birthday is kinda important...
Because there is where the freedom start in my life...
But i guess right the moment, it is not important anymore...
Because no one is celebrating for me or with me.
Nothing that its gonna be special on that day...
Unless people plan a suprise party for my 18th birthday...
Bleahs! So troublesome of my friggen life!
Arghh! ='(

Wednesday, November 14, 2007


Wondering why is this star Night picture was here...
Well this picture is related to a lyric which i wrote and it's called 'Under The Stars'
Hope everyone like it la :]
This lyric gotta to do with my life so i'm thinking of post it in my blog.
Anyway...Enjoy the lyric and the beautiful words =]

"Under The Stars" Wrote by Theodoric Job Lingan
Verse 1
Watching the stars at night
There's nothing that i rather do
The moon is the only light
That i can be still look at you
Chorus
So lets make these memory last
Of this night to be come to claim mars
I promise i never forget
Such a perfect night under the stars
Verse 2
The air is full with comfort
The air is full with tears
There's nothing we have to look out for
So lets make the most of this place
Chorus
So lets make these memory last
Of this night to be come to claim mars
I promise i never forget
Such a perfect night under the stars
Bridge
I promise you, i promise you
I promise you, i promise you
I promise you, i promise you
I promise you, i promise you
Chorus
So lets make these memory last
Of this night to be come to claim mars
I promise i never forget
Such a perfect night under the stars
Chorus
So lets make these memory last
Of this night to be come to claim mars
I promise i never forget
Such a perfect night under the stars
Bridge
I promise you, i promise you
I promise you, i promise you
I promise you, i promise you
I promise you, i promise you





That's it.... Hope you all like it... These is what i can do so far...
So what you all think about it? Is it ok? Hmm... Do let me know aite :]
Please and thank you everyone :D
This song it's kinda related to me because i do promise you and will not forget what i've promise you since before... I know im not that great but i'm trying my best for you.
Anyway.... God Bless :]

Tuesday, November 13, 2007



Love is explainig above in the picture.

Sometimes i wonder...
Why can i have a special relationship like others?
Am i not good enough to have one?
Is it because of my characteristic is different than others?
Who would love me?
When will i know that person loves me?
A few mysterious question huh.


"Love the one who loves you.
Never hate the one who hates you.
Don't wait for the one who never loves you.
And never make the one who loves you wait for you.
Try to find love and Search for the meaning of it.
But never wish to have it.
Appreciate the one who loves you and value their love.
Never let them down.
Because love may come unseen.
And you can only see it when it's gone."



The words that LiL Gwenne told me.

Day by day i tried to figure out what is the question behind this words.
What is the real meaning deep inside this words?
But i failed to understand the whole picture of it.


Ga'aH!
It's confusing my mind & my life!
Now i'm stuck in the attic & my life is draining and pouring like rain.
*Sight*
I'm drowning in the love relationship but it has no water at the place i'm drowning..?


I need a cure medicine!
A cure medicine which are never could be found except i myself!
I figure out that it's worst to live alone.
I will never understand what does "LOVE" means until someone who loves me & willing to share her special relationship with me.
Then i'll understand the whole picture about love.
It's true that some people do show me what is "LOVE" means.
But in a special relationship type of love.
The phrase or words that was shown above is still a puzzle that needs to be done & arrange in the correct spaces that are given only for it.




Everyone could see the sun...
The sea...
and the clouds...
Beautiful right?
Now let me say something...
See how wonderful the view is? Everyone loves to see a beautiful view like this right.
So what i'm gonna say is...
Why can't we have this kind of 'wonderful' and 'beautiful' relationship like shown in the picture....
I mean...
The sea is 'PEACE'
while the sun is giving 'LIGHT' to our life
& the clouds has the opportunity for us to be 'CALM'.
Am i right?
Let talk about the sea now.
The reason why i say that the sea is 'PEACE' is because i don't think anyone wants a war while we have a wonderful life to live.
And this war i'm talking about is the relationship of love.
We do know that every couple would fight just because some stupid matters.
Then in the end...
Relationship are destroyed...
KabooM!
Spoil!
Now is about the Sun.
I gives 'LIGHT' to everyone.
In our life...
When we achieve something...
We would be happy right?
So we have the 'LIGHT'.
This 'LIGHT' that i mean
mostly would be in the starting of a new relationship.
When someone say to you...
'I LOVE YOU'.
We would surely be so happy right?
There where our 'LIGHT' appears in life.
'CALM'....
Hmm.....
What to describe about 'CALM'?
I'm sure when everyone goes to the beach suddenly you will see the sky....
The sea...
Everything that are at the beach...
Especially the sky...
You & everyone of us will feel so calm and not feeling worried about anything...
Problem in life just disappear pronto!

So that is it...Figure out what im talking about && try to be like the sun...the sea...or even the clouds =D

Monday, November 12, 2007

Part of my life was Wondering Around

I kinda realise that a part of my life was wondering around.
I didn't know at first until i realise that i push myself away from love relationship.
Now that's odd.Everyone seems to search for love but me.I just don't care about love tho.
It hurts me so badly the last time i felt in love.Crush so hard till i fall!
Then i realise i've change.
From happy to sad.
Self-confidence to awkward person.


Then some people help me out after i felt...






Brian,Barry,Gwenne,Garnette & Aylwin =D
Thank you so much! Without you guys...I wont be this happy as i was =D



Not only them...there are others too...





She are one of the girl who helps me to gain back my confidence
Thanks Princess...I so owe u one =D


&& also both of them...especially willy...without u bro...i dunno wat to do anymore
then these girl on the left...u are amazing...always there to hear my probs.I just wish i could
help u on your probs too =/
thanks yah =D