Okay...oKay...
1st of all....Do you know that this isn't me...haha...
It's my twin brother Theodore John Lingan...
You know how much i miss him so badly...
Well i guess you all don't.
For 17 years been together and got separated this year...
So that's just bored rite...&& sad...bleahs!
Anyway,he did asked me to post his own-made poem...
or quotes...i don't know....
Well...i did promise him right?
so here it is bro =)

" Watching th moon at night...
As its passes above me...
Wandered is life like the Moon and the Sun...
its like the Day and the Night.
Watching the night in the star near the moon,
watch the moon in the sky
which all seems connected
to be a reason of a human love relationship circle
about life is going around and around
And has no ends.
Life is a sea which have its own generation from the past
to the current timebeing."

Well bro...there it is...hope you're satisfied with it...
I did add a bit because there's grammar mistake....haha..
You should learn english more =b
hahaha!
Anyway...that's it for today's blog!
Gonna bloG again soon =)
*SmIlEs*

The 4 picture above is a christmas season...
Soon its gonna be christmas....
I'm a little bit sad because i'm not going anywhere...
Just gonna stay in kuching....
1st of all...
I'm gonna celebrate my birthday alone without my twin brother...John ='(
My birthday is gonna be on the 22nd December...
Usually my twin brother & i gonna celebrate it together...
But this year is different...I'm gonna celebrate it alone without him...
I'm sure gonna cry because this is my 1st time celebrating my birthday without him.
2nd of all...
Christmas gonna be a boredoom without John =(
I'm gonna miss him during...

My birthday...

My christmas...

My New year...

Looks like i'm gonna celebrate everything by my own...
Everybody gonna have a very happy celebration while i just celebrate it by my own...
Everyone asked me to go back miri for christmas...
But my holidays start on the 23 dec 07 till 1 Jan 08
What is the use of going back if my holidays is short right...
makes well i just stay...
But the thing is i'm gonna be so boredoom....
Even if i do go back to miri...I'm sure i'm not celebrating my birthday at miri...
That is even worst!
Bleahs!
I was thinking of doing some party for my 18th birthday...
But how?
Its not that i'm going back or anything...I'm like staying alone at home...
So not gonna have any 18th birthday party tho... =(
To me...My 18th birthday is kinda important...
Because there is where the freedom start in my life...
But i guess right the moment, it is not important anymore...
Because no one is celebrating for me or with me.
Nothing that its gonna be special on that day...
Unless people plan a suprise party for my 18th birthday...
Bleahs! So troublesome of my friggen life!
Arghh! ='(

Wondering why is this star Night picture was here...
Well this picture is related to a lyric which i wrote and it's called 'Under The Stars'
Hope everyone like it la :]
This lyric gotta to do with my life so i'm thinking of post it in my blog.
Anyway...Enjoy the lyric and the beautiful words =]

"Under The Stars" Wrote by Theodoric Job Lingan

Verse 1

Watching the stars at night

There's nothing that i rather do

The moon is the only light

That i can be still look at you

Chorus

So lets make these memory last

Of this night to be come to claim mars

I promise i never forget

Such a perfect night under the stars

Verse 2

The air is full with comfort

The air is full with tears

There's nothing we have to look out for

So lets make the most of this place

Chorus

So lets make these memory last

Of this night to be come to claim mars

I promise i never forget

Such a perfect night under the stars

Bridge

I promise you, i promise you

I promise you, i promise you

I promise you, i promise you

I promise you, i promise you

Chorus

So lets make these memory last

Of this night to be come to claim mars

I promise i never forget

Such a perfect night under the stars

Chorus

So lets make these memory last

Of this night to be come to claim mars

I promise i never forget

Such a perfect night under the stars

Bridge

I promise you, i promise you

I promise you, i promise you

I promise you, i promise you

I promise you, i promise you

That's it.... Hope you all like it... These is what i can do so far...
So what you all think about it? Is it ok? Hmm... Do let me know aite :]
Please and thank you everyone :D
This song it's kinda related to me because i do promise you and will not forget what i've promise you since before... I know im not that great but i'm trying my best for you.
Anyway.... God Bless :]

Love is explainig above in the picture.

Sometimes i wonder...

Why can i have a special relationship like others?

Am i not good enough to have one?

Is it because of my characteristic is different than others?

Who would love me?

When will i know that person loves me?

A few mysterious question huh.

"Love the one who loves you.
Never hate the one who hates you.
Don't wait for the one who never loves you.
And never make the one who loves you wait for you.
Try to find love and Search for the meaning of it.
But never wish to have it.
Appreciate the one who loves you and value their love.
Never let them down.
Because love may come unseen.
And you can only see it when it's gone."

The words that LiL Gwenne told me.

Day by day i tried to figure out what is the question behind this words.

What is the real meaning deep inside this words?

But i failed to understand the whole picture of it.

Ga'aH!

It's confusing my mind & my life!

Now i'm stuck in the attic & my life is draining and pouring like rain.

*Sight*

I'm drowning in the love relationship but it has no water at the place i'm drowning..?

I need a cure medicine!

A cure medicine which are never could be found except i myself!

I figure out that it's worst to live alone.

I will never understand what does "LOVE" means until someone who loves me & willing to share her special relationship with me.

Then i'll understand the whole picture about love.

It's true that some people do show me what is "LOVE" means.

But in a special relationship type of love.

The phrase or words that was shown above is still a puzzle that needs to be done & arrange in the correct spaces that are given only for it.

Everyone could see the sun...
The sea...
and the clouds...
Beautiful right?
Now let me say something...
See how wonderful the view is? Everyone loves to see a beautiful view like this right.
So what i'm gonna say is...
Why can't we have this kind of 'wonderful' and 'beautiful' relationship like shown in the picture....
I mean...
The sea is 'PEACE'
while the sun is giving 'LIGHT' to our life
& the clouds has the opportunity for us to be 'CALM'.
Am i right?
Let talk about the sea now.
The reason why i say that the sea is 'PEACE' is because i don't think anyone wants a war while we have a wonderful life to live.
And this war i'm talking about is the relationship of love.
We do know that every couple would fight just because some stupid matters.
Then in the end...
Relationship are destroyed...
KabooM!
Spoil!
Now is about the Sun.
I gives 'LIGHT' to everyone.
In our life...
When we achieve something...
We would be happy right?
So we have the 'LIGHT'.
This 'LIGHT' that i mean
mostly would be in the starting of a new relationship.
When someone say to you...
'I LOVE YOU'.
We would surely be so happy right?
There where our 'LIGHT' appears in life.
'CALM'....
Hmm.....
What to describe about 'CALM'?
I'm sure when everyone goes to the beach suddenly you will see the sky....
The sea...
Everything that are at the beach...
Especially the sky...
You & everyone of us will feel so calm and not feeling worried about anything...
Problem in life just disappear pronto!

So that is it...Figure out what im talking about && try to be like the sun...the sea...or even the clouds =D

Part of my life was Wondering Around

I kinda realise that a part of my life was wondering around.

I didn't know at first until i realise that i push myself away from love relationship.

Now that's odd.Everyone seems to search for love but me.I just don't care about love tho.

It hurts me so badly the last time i felt in love.Crush so hard till i fall!

Then i realise i've change.

From happy to sad.

Self-confidence to awkward person.

Then some people help me out after i felt...

Brian,Barry,Gwenne,Garnette & Aylwin =D

Thank you so much! Without you guys...I wont be this happy as i was =D

Not only them...there are others too...

She are one of the girl who helps me to gain back my confidence

Thanks Princess...I so owe u one =D

&& also both of them...especially willy...without u bro...i dunno wat to do anymore
then these girl on the left...u are amazing...always there to hear my probs.I just wish i could
help u on your probs too =/
thanks yah =D