Where were they when I needed my friends?

Sometimes I felt like I've been to kind to my friends that I got ditch after their problems are solved. When I needed them to be around, not a single person would come back to me. In fact, they ignore my text messages. I'm not an attention seeker, trust me. But when I needed friends to be around, no one seems to bother. I know some of them do read my text messages but never bother to replied. I mean, it's not hard to reply saying that you're busy or something? Short message would do. I understand, we all have our own things to do in life. I know that. The next time, you all would say that I didn't look for them. The fact that I did, just that you all prefer to ignore my text messages. I don't mind keeping this in my heart. But when I am not in the mood, I'll definitely burst all out from my heart. I know it's not good to keep it in my heart but this is how I am. I prefer to keep it in my heart. I don't want to let people see that I'm in deep shit and always complaining. I like to make others smile. I don't mind if I don't smile. As long as my friends are smiling and happy, I'm fine with it. In fact, I'd be glad. But sometimes, it feels good if other people do this to me. Instead of me keeping them smiling, why not they are one of the reason that I smiled. I'd appreciate it a lot. But no one has the character that I have. It sucks to feel this way. Anyways, that's it for now.

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